Today’s the day! Up early bag packed, and I am going to Galway!! I was so excited last night that I woke up at 4.30am thinking it was time to go! When I lived in Sydney I went to a playwriting event in Canberra. It was on for two days – two days of pure bliss. I immersed myself in the playwriting process, met the most interesting people with amazing stories, and learned that my voice in writing was unique. That was 1997. Why has it taken me so long to get back to what I have a passion for and what I am good at?
While I was living in New Zealand in my late twenties, I discovered I was good at sales and that was my downfall!! I started in a company who advertised on TV – anything from exercise bikes, to night vision glasses, to fake tan. I sold it all, we even sold herbal ‘pick me up’ for men only tablet and weight loss tablets – not entirely sure either of those are legal?
Despite myself, I excelled in sales, and there was the problem. I got promoted and transferred to Sydney. When I returned to Ireland I
got a job in Dell – I was promoted 4 times in two years. I moved into the corporate sales with the £5 million annual target – still I kept blowing the targets. Even after kids, I kept getting promoted and
getting more money, better cars, expenses, flying to California for training events, winning holiday incentives! It was sheer hell!
So much hell in fact, that I could never envisage a time when I could leave that lifestyle behind. Well, funny thing is – I actually didn’t have to make the choice, the decision was made for me. And finally, finally, when all the corporate ‘soul-selling’ was stripped away, I discovered that in a strange way I now had the freedom to do what I wanted to do.
For the first time in twenty years, the treadmill stopped and I was free to get off. I chose writing. My passion is for hearing and telling stories, for slowly and carefully illuminating characters. It has been such an indulgence for me, to write 2-3 hours per day. To write at
least 2000 words a week for my course; to update my blog and to try to be funny – indulge me please, 🙂
If I hadn’t been made redundant, I would be travelling to a meeting in Hammersmith next week, planning for summer 2012, organising promotions and events.
But I am on the train to Galway. I am attending a 2 day course with writers from the X Files, Shameless, Casualty, Waking the Dead etc. I know I am only beginning, but I have made the best beginning I could. So these last ten months have been a journey indeed.